Writing Wednesday: July’s Camp is Almost Over!

FAIL?

FAIL?

July’s Camp NaNoWriMo session is almost over and I am not doing well.  Why?  My head isn’t as into it as I hoped.  Where is my head?  Sooooo many other places and most of it can be mentioned just yet.  It has to do with November’s plans, how to fill the 8 months between now and Modern Persuasion’s publication, work stuff, and a few other things.

What exactly am I working on for Camp NaNo?  It’s my very first NaNoWriMo novel.  It is, essentially, about hiring a new Devil.  When I first wrote it I had a lot of anger.  This was at a point in my life when I still beat myself up for choices that went wrong.  It started with a dream in which I had to stop people in hell from going on a ski trip to here.  From there it took off and it was so easy to write.  I remember being not sure how I wanted it to end so I wrote two endings.  I remember still not having 50,000 words and writing an author’s note at the end to make the word count.

I put it away for years, once letting Christi read it when I considered revisiting it.  Her feedback was encouraging, but I wasn’t happy with the story and I couldn’t get back to the anger to help me edit it.  Then, this year, I had a sudden brainstorm about how it could fit into a bigger picture AND how to make it work without going back to that angry place.  I even knew how it needed to end, allowing me to shed the second ending and the author notes.  I outlined my new plan, played with a few changes, and seemed to be on a roll. Then I lost steam.

It happens.  It’s not that I don’t want to write this story.  It’s not that I don’t know what to write.  It’s not writer’s block, but writer’s distraction.  The question is: why am I so easily distracted?  The answer: I am trying to do too much in the story.  I am trying to outline the basics on a universe.  I am trying to balance showing it, telling it, and discussing it.  I have too much dialog explaining the world.  I am writing certain things easily.  For example, my main character is not our hero.  I am playing with the idea of villains being the heroes of their own story.  I love disliking her and forcing her to wake up to reality.  I love writing the things she is oblivious to, but the reader should clearly see.  She is fun, but then I get stuck in explaining the universe.  It is too much.

So, what am I going to do?  I am going to try to finish the story and then put it away while I work it out.  I am going to let someone else read it and help give me some direction on where I can show the universe more than talk about it over and over and over.  SO MUCH TALKING ABOUT IT.

I am going to finish though.  It’s not that I don’t want to fail… again.  It’s more that I want to be done with this story and moving on to editing.  I want to be able to move forward with this universe and look at the bigger story.  Next week I will let you know how I do.

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